Wednesday, February 27, 2008

http://starsinjenseyes.tumblr.com/

Monday, February 25, 2008

Letting go.

She died angry and holding a grudge- a grudge she held inside her heart for a year. Over something so trivial as a cruise to the Bahamas. Even when she woke from the coma and none of her words made sense, she was still talking about that cruise. The one her sisters didn't invite her to join. The truth is that she has been so sick for so long that she was in denial; denial about her own life and her death. The truth is that she was never going to be well enough to get on that cruise.

I'm wholly convinced that she held out, attempting to ruin their cruise or at the very least postpone it. Which is really funny and a true testament to how much that bitter grudge consumed her. Funny and telling and so isolated in her bitterness.

Friday, February 08, 2008

Airing my grievances about Paypal.

I get that Paypal is the wave of the future or something. It allows me, as an individual to sell my wares online to other people in a secure setting (supposedly).

Paypal has every known addressed I have ever lived at in the past five years. Places I don't even remember living. They've got credit cards on file for bank accounts I closed in 2003. And I can't delete any of them! Does that make any sense? NO.

Furthermore, they keep giving me an error message that says my credit card was rejected because of my credit card company. So I tried a different card and got the same message. Frankly, I was too lazy to call my credit card company and ask them WTF? until today after I had made no advances in purchasing ONE cd that is only available via Paypal.

I finally bothered to call my credit card company today, only to find out that all of the charges had gone through. Yippee! That means I'll have four shiny copies of the same CD.

Also, holy crap, why can't I remember my Paypal password? (my own doing, not Paypal's)

Thursday, February 07, 2008

I take pictures with other people's animals.


Alternately: My sister's dog is a mad scientist.


Alternately: My sister's dog is Michael J. Fox in Teenwolf.

Tactile reminders from the distant present.

My granny's car smells strongly of cake and icing.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Dear Midwest,

Please stop snowing. It is depressing me endlessly. This is enough to make me move to Florida for the winter just like the old people.

xoxo,
Jen

Sunday, February 03, 2008

definitely/indefinitely

I've been in Illinois for a week+. I'll be here at least another week. I've been at the hospital since Friday afternoon waiting this out. I'm feeling enormously drained. Life is heart achingly grown up these days.