espionage.

i have been subconciously sabatoging my own relationships in the last six months. because i have been lying to myself.

i am a hypocrite. i am a hypocrite who needs to stop lying to herself.

i am not sure how to fix this problem. but i want and need to fix this problem. because we all deserve* more happiness in our lives.

*deserve is not the word i am looking for, but its the first that comes to mind.

cold nose.

i've been thinking about getting rid of my ipod and buying another. gals don't wear an engagement ring after the engagement has been called off.

and neither do i.

it is approaching 10pm, by the time i get home midnight will be lurking. i promised myself i would go out and be social tonight but that was twelve hours ago before i worked without breaks before i drank on the job before the cold night air bit my legs.

i am in serious need of some legwarmers.

there must be some toros in the atmosphere.

i secretly pleasure in working so much; it gives me a reason to not worry about social plans.

neglected

Self-depricating humor doesn't work if you're talking about someone else.

Oh, online journal, soon I won't neglect your sweet nectarine. Tu eres mi melocoton.

Truly.